The sadness in me ; who knows ? Cut the Crap.

Baby , you light up my world w your everydays.
I love you , I miss disturbing you , I inked every part of our memories internally .
With you , my life is full of colours & laughter. Yes , w tears ; but tears of joyness.
Today , here . Imma having tears of sadness. Because I couldnt find any colours w my everyday since  the day you last kissed me w goodnight hugs. #17 . 

Dear diary . 
Dear me , dear reader , dear friend , dear dear dear...

What about my dearest boyfriend ? ):
Boyfriend , Imy so munchy munchy. heeeeeees. Ive send out another letter , earlier on. I took up my yesterday night to write the letter before turning in th morning. Sighs. Plenty of words to tell you . Give me tons of year , i also wouldnt complete my sayings. You know why . Because , Ive tooo much to tell youh , perhaps i should say , that includes my nonsense words. Trololol . Just to keep you by me with never endlessness of words. I cant wait i cant wait . Its the 30th of May. Just 3 more days to go. Ohyeah bi . Imma able to see you , like a FINALLY. No matter how ; what ; deadbeat also gonna dragged my feet there. I know ya'miss me , but i miss you more. Bi , Endure till your release alright . Because my moral of support is always there. Our love is always keeping us moving on every day. Ive faith in you & looking upon your release , and back to our sweetest romance (: Its always the sweetest in my eyes , be it how bitter ; sweet ; sour ; chilli it gonna be liked to others. Its just the matter of you & me. That forms the word " together " . (:

Ohmy ! Holy shit . Firstly, I'm gonna say, seriously ; frankly ; honestly ..
I MISS MY BOYFRIEND , alot.  . & yes , thats for sure D: Secondly , i failed my BTT on that very MondayBLUEEEE ; should say MONDAYBOOOOH , with that very 1 mark !!!!! FREAK IT OUT DUDE . Well . I had a score of 44/50. So sad. Just 1 more mark & imma able to scrape thru it. sighs. Wat a great impact of sadness and disappointment in myself , without baby's presence. While having the test , seriously ; butterflies flying around in my stomach canzxz. Nervous like sot one canzxzz ._. so damn shitty. Nvmind, shall give it a shot again. Never give up , till the very end. If there is a will ; there's always a way ! Huhuhuh . Alright , imma trying to comfort myself , ignored me.* . (humpfs!)

Last last last.  My left hand arm , seems to be like , internal injured can =,= Th bone , macam macam siahhs. Macam gonnnnnaaa crack , anytime anywhere. Godbless . LOL ! Alright , i guess imma stopping here & back to my bed again , despite i had a sleep earlier on for more than 12 hour going on. LOL ! Sleeping definately is a No Problem to me. xD & thats my perfect companion without Bby's accompany right now. No choice , hehees. &  imma such a goood daughter , sister , girlfriend ; that i camp @ home for these entire 3 days. (suckthumb) . Bcause the shopping are close @ night. & my brain is close during the day. Busy working @ lalaland. Whoooos.Alright . stopppppppping here . Am gonna jump off to bed.
Goooodnight dearly .

Ending my post with a flying kissss ~ Muachhhhhhhhks ! Specially for my boyfriend ; PohWeiSheng.
Ohmy , dearest , catch it ! xD Might take some processing time , because you 're @ the another side of where imma right now. (rolleyes!) But still , only for youh baybeh ~ Loveyouhhhs dearly. Ciaos.

BTT , my doooms day D:

Hi peeps ! ,
Randomly i got awake at this timing ,whereas actually imma slping soundly. Over nervous yeah baybeh. Imma having my BTT today, which is later on. Ohmy! Seriously , imma rather no confident yeahs. Humpfs! But but but.. Nvmind. Just gonna do my very best duhh. I know my bf is gonna give me his moral support though he cnt go along tht w me. Yeahs baybeh. But fear not , mrpoh. (: yr gf can de la ! Hahahaha chill bby. ._.
alright i shall be back again. W my lil good news .(praying ; hoping ; gonna be) stay tuned yeahsssa . Back to my beauty slp. Gooodnights !

Photos indicating , th lighters ive been collecting w my deary boy, till now, am still gg on. Gonna collect till th day my deary bf is out & baby , lets collect tgt ! (:

#poh wei sheng's only girlfriend & thats me baybeh! ^,^

Casual updates (:

Hi people ..
Been time since i last really blog & here imma updating thru phoney. Ohmy; pardon me for my typo if there is yeahs (:
Well well well .. Nothing much w my days; but a pathetic ones ): AND my BTT is on th coming MON ,28th! Damnn ganjiong canzxz but on th other hand , imma rather happy (: Basically bcus imma able to visit boyf on th nxt sat ! Whoooo!!! Miss him so much ): sitting alone in th kitchen , w a stick of cigg , have been wondering what he is doing now , hows he doing now and all ): imma missing him so badly )': if only he were t be here right now . Sighs !
Endurance ; struggling ; confident w faith (': . Ohmydear calendar & earth ; can i fast forward my life , my time to ~2014 ? Sighs . I want my boyfriend back w me here . Ive got so much i wanna share w him about.
Mr poh wei sheng ! 我好想你！你有在想我吗？)': i know u do! Cus i keep sneezing. Eheehehe ! Gonna write a letter t ya later on after this post (: ohyeah . Stay tuned n will be back w overdued photos taken @ yhk etc yeahz (:
Lastly ! Happy 20th Birthday to AishahB & Happy 19th Birthday to GraceLimbirdyy ! Imissyouh both too !(:
Stopping here & be back soon REAL soon baybeh ~
Oh! IlovemyBOYFRIEND! <3

An advanced 19th birthday celebrations . Hoping you will be here , miracle do happen ! . ):

Thanks BbyAku for this lovely doraemon cupcakes surprise (: 

Hi .
Had my advanced birthday celebration with my dearest brothers & sisters. Thanks lots for making the effort down. Thanks xiaoboon brother for specially make the effort down to westmall just to pass me redpacket and head off to his thingy. As he make the effort down just to pass me despite he is rather busy. & Bryan . Thanks afterall , despite ur injuries leg. TT Recover fast ! And thanks for the ice-cream treat tgt w yisek bro & ian sworn. (: Really so much appreciatd, Especially my bbykyn , putting in the effort to get me th doraes cupcake , as shown above , its really a shocking for me. ohmyyye. Melts. They're so sweeet. (: Iloveyouhs guys.

Dearest Piggyboy ..
If only you are out here. Definitely , that will be the bestest gift among all i would have wanted. Imma missing youh badly still. Am looking forward to see youh round the corner , ive so much of  endless words to talk to youh , share w youh about. 3more days & we gonna scrape thru till our 5th monthsary. Imma counting still , waiting for you to be out here to celebrate and filled up my real smile instead of the fake smile upon me ..
Imissyouh dearly. PohWeiSheng..

HappyMothersDay to all Mommy especially my beloved mom.
Thanks for all the care and concern and hope you have put on me , and nevertheless , you are always there for me ; not giving up on me , till today. Without your motivation , your encouragement to keep me moving , your presences and love , i wouldnt have been so strong to keep on going. Thanks Mom for giving th best , you're and will be my only dearest Mommy despite your naggy and all. But , i appreciate it still . Will learn to give you less worries xD Iloveyou , mommy !

Here's a video of Ian Sworn , singing Birthdaysong with his first attempt of playing guitar , to me. Huhuhu ! Feel so honored yeahyeahs. Thanks bro . With this , i will forgive you for calling me @ 10pm , telling me you gonna REACH and end up , i see youh at 12am -,- TMD ! But , your presences and thoughts that count. I know you guys have been trying to cheer me upon the reasons , which you all know. I appreciated it. You guys , nevertheless , i always seen the lovable ; sweet & caring faces upon . (:

Thanks my bestest swornbrother , Ian . I shall see youh again ! xD 

 

& Whoo ! He says .. Imma lighter than the Aps's times alot. D:
My piggyback partner! :D I should have jump to his back without notifying him. Blaaahhs . 

Baby . I miss your piggyback too. Each time i fell asleep in the living room , you would carry me into my room ; my bed , cover blanket and goodnight kiss. Each time imma lazy to get out of my bed , you will just piggyback me even its a short distance ; as i tends to always sai-nai w youh. . Bi , imissyouh awesomely much ): I feel so alone without youh. Veryvery alone .. 

Regrets harms body seriously. .(:

Too much regrets . I want to be a school girl , apparently but not internally -,-

Hi sup . 

Randomly am here to post up a short and simple post.
Again , lifes move on like this everyday , lifelessly. Ohmyohmy. Immma so much in a confuse ya'noe. A very mixed feeling. Secondly , thinking back while imma having my smking 's moment , i've realise ; i have so much regrets , comparing to those i had never been regret. If only if only if only.
If only , i would have listen to my mom. I wouldnt had chose to quit school because of past tense 's presence. Shouldnt have every tried on everything that could give me the chance to. Shouldnt have got the habit of my "rubber band" timing. Life seems simple and easy going when imma young. The older i grow each year , the more problems adding in , directly to me. Fated ? Or can i choose ? If i can , i dont request much. Stop at this year before 6th feb. Thinking back imma feeling so sucky.
Whatever. The rain is starting to tempt me upon sleeeeeping. But my letter had not been complete. (for boyfriend's) . Shall pull a stop here. , and update again very sooon., Winkzxz.

Always remember to think before you do. Because , having too much regrets in life , its really very regretful than youh've ever though nor thinking of why would i should had , and so etc. The world is ful of unfairness.

Staytuned here hurhur..

10days timeee ..

Booh sup ! In a blink of eyes , 10days time upon turning 9teen.. Woah! And in a blink of eyes , boyf have been in for about up to 3mth plus. Times really do flies . Basically, imma happy receiving upon his first letter. But couldnt pay him for the first visit as max 3 person. Sighs. Nvmind. There is chances still i believe.. Nthing much for myself to xpress any of my thoughts here but basically , th moments being w him 's period is here again breaking down me. My dear boyfriend . Hopefully you are doing well & bhave yrself . Immma missing youh, everyone knows that. (':

Picture depicts th scene of how much i wanted you to be here to fit into th picture tgt w me ; once again. 17

Nothing but if only

Ive got nothing much to be mention here , but only . . . .
I miss you so much . If only the time could rewind or turns back , i would really like to stop the earth/world from turning , stop the time for moving on . and remain the love bonding in between us.
God tends to be unfair , bringing away the one i love and i need the most and faithfully committed myself wholeheartly into it away from me. I dont need anything else . But just to be loved than to love. How i wish i could never know the meaning of love . So i wouldnt had fall in love ..

JY ; M ; WS . (the ones , spells regrets)

Bid bye 'JOEY' , Wave hi "Cutie Stars"

Ohmy , baby is seriously awesomely cute & adorable. 

Hi whooo . 


Saw that babyboy above ? Went for his 1years old party ; Eben's babyboy. Cooool , he is uberly cute canzxz. But tends to be pulling my hair -,-" Here , lemme have a quick update .
Nothing much about my life these days , just merely some prata bitches tends to pop up at the wrong timing. Well , by all means. Blame yourself for not holding nor handling it well. Dont finger point and push all the blames yet , ends up ; wanted to bring 'LAW' in. Speeechless when i hear this among the conv. this morning. I dont know to laugh or to shake my head.

Secondly , ive stop my hair stylist traineee. As their expectation is far way tooo high than ive expected ._. A great big difference from Avi's learning skill. Ohtian , i couldnt take it . Shall back to Retail line would be probably more suits me. Ohyeahs.

Last , WHOO ! Finally i've got my 'Joey' covered up w stars , on my ankle. Pain ; definitely but endurance is there. Ohmy , for the sake of beng vain . Ahhhs.Sweeee ~ 2weeks later ,gonna go back for touch up again. Am still deciding what to cover up for the one on my arms. /= Should i just addon colour for it , or covered w a new artpiece. Shall see how things goes again.

Tatatas. Imma gonna get my ass off to bathe and make my way down to B.Timah.
Ohyeah , i've 14 more days to go upon 19years old. Present present present ! I want present ! xD hhuhu.
#Poweroflove. & Taurus rocks on the best . 

Ended w my  stars . Not fully complete , as the completed artpiece is in my phone.
Check it out through my Twitter xD 

Oh , imma starting to get addictive into tattttttttttttttttooooo once again.
Whereas , i know it gonna be w me for life. Thinking , considering , ahhhws. Anyway , iloveit ! xD