Confusing mindset. F.O

So much words filling up my thoughts , but i've no either where to start ... 

Dear blogger , dear diary , dear boyfriend , dear friend , dear reader , dear meeeeee ... 


So much so much so much words in my mind right now , whereas i seriously dont know to start from where. Neither do i know how to put it in words. Is so complicating that it run wilds my mind. The feeling irritates me so much , ohwell. I just miss my boyfriend far way too much. Till the extend , i've so much to tell him , share w him , plan w him. I feel so much like shouting my words out now , and hopefully he can hear me from his side there. D: Is very impossible. Lets do a heart-heart talking , baby. ^,# I know is rather something silly willy thinking. I just miss him helplessly. . .

So much things and words to get rid out from my mouth , but who can i turn to ; rant to ? If only i've a machine who can listens to whatever i want to say , beside me , at the very critical or whatever  moments. Its gonna be awesomely much more chilling for me. .

(the ir-responsible jerk of the two) .
Past had become a history , why do youh have to come & contact to talk to me back (in website) , it just simple reminds me back to the onced . The onced that i can actually have a twins by me now. A onced which youh can be such a heartless jerk. WITHOUT giving a 2nd thought. Your presence now , does not reminds me to think back YOU , does not makes me having any good impression in youh neither. The painful part is , it reminds me back to the "2life", i could have in my hands ; yet it became a memories to be keep only. HEARTLESS JERK _\_ F.O 


Will update aqain , when i found  'start' to start off with. Staytuned baybehs. 
#17 , piggyoinkoink . Wo hao xiang ni nehys. How how how )-: